Desire - The Hidden Truth

When you feel desire, what happens first?

Your body remembers before your mind does

I dismiss it

A voice says this is not for someone like me

I perform it

I know how to show desire without feeling it

I split

My body wants one thing, my mind another

I go numb

Feeling it is too dangerous

What were you taught about wanting?

The first lessons shape the current pattern

Good girls do not want

Desire makes you dirty, shameful, wrong

Your want serves others

Desirability is your value, desire is your tool

Wanting means choosing

Pick love or lust, sacred or profane, never both

Wanting is unsafe

Your desire led to harm, so you locked it away

In moments of pleasure, where do you go?

Presence reveals the hidden pattern

Away from my body

I watch myself from outside, judging

Into performance

Am I doing it right? Do they want me?

Between two selves

Part of me is here, part is not allowed

I cannot arrive

I observe from distance, never landing

What would full permission feel like?

The hidden want reveals the hidden wound

Dangerous

If I let myself want, I will be too much

Exposing

Real desire means they see the real me

Impossible

I cannot have both wholeness and desire

Unreachable

That part of me is gone, exiled for safety

If your desire had a voice, what would it say?

The final thread reveals the complete pattern

I am not allowed

Wanting makes me bad, wrong, unlovable

I am a tool

My job is to be desired, not to desire

I am divided

Holy and profane cannot coexist in me

I am gone

I left to keep her safe from wanting